Two Caves
Two caves. The first one built like a stone circle, made for community and song, asked me for a tune and my voice bounced merrily back and forth as she accompanied me with her water song. Droplets like a blessing to my head. I called her Little Sister. The second, deep and dark... here I felt the primordial mother. Big Mother. Sheela na Gig. The home of St. Dwynwen's bow, which could tell you how long it would be until you wed, by how well you threw your stone over it. Remnants of an old fertility rite I am sure, like asking St Anne for a husband... in the stories you must always ask a grandmother. Devotional objects carved from stone. Mother in matter.
It all leads back to Her if you take time to listen.
Lord Sun
bird of prey, gliding above me
as i lie beneath the catkins
telling myself stories of goddesses and gardeners
cat prowling and chasing rainbow light
sun lord thaw my cheeks to smiles
with your hot caress.
melt my words so they begin to babble and flow
from my heart's brook
i've been longing for you
without even knowing it.
Miscarriage Ceremony With Starfish Friends
Today I had the honour of holding a ceremony for a mother and dear little baby who was lost to miscarriage, who left the womb far too early. Pain and grief can all be supported by ceremony that acknowledges how momentous our loss is.
Through ceremony, we can find meaning and beauty in the darker human experiences, can be reminded that we are held and whole. Some souls only come here to experience unconditional love, to experience being in a womb, then they are off on their next journey… and we are left with a heart broken open.
So we went to the coast to set the little one free, the sea water like the amniotic fluid, making the passage from human mother to ocean mother.
And miraculously, Holy Mother sent us starfish friends to welcome them home. The breathtaking beauty of it all. The realisation of the interconnectedness we all share. The gift of seeing the starfish after so many years.
“You are loved, have always been, always will be loved”
