This situation is so challenging, especially if you have trauma and think you have done such a good job healing it. Isolation isn’t allowing us to mask our problems with busyness and now we are faced with our own reflection 24/7, and a lot of us can’t stand it, me included.
For me this isolation has brought up for me the huge victim mindset I have carried around with me to cope with the brittle, empty feeling I carry inside from trauma. To convince myself that because things happened TO me I wasn’t involved and don’t need to examine my darker side. Why do I feel abandoned and like people can live without me? Why is feeling invisible so uncomfortable to me? Why am I finding my own negative emotions unbearable? This is actually nothing to do with the situation we are in, this is ME.
Forced into shadow rehab. To live in a wounded feminine place is to live a half-life of excuses and blame, envy, criticism. We have been lugging this crap around for at least one lifetime. I see a new vision of a woman who is empowered, connected to her purpose, who accepts her dark and light side, not a martyr or a victim, who co-creates, who shapes her own reality.
What have you been running from?
