Doulas are servants of the mystery

As birth workers we bring a unique wisdom of experience to each family that we serve, but what I have learned the most in the last decade of attending birth is that I will only ever be a servant of the mystery.

Birthworkers hold the original design for birth in our heart and often in our bodies. But that is just the beginning of wisdom. What does it mean to hold space at the threshold of life and death? To be able to accept things as they are and not as they "should" be, from our limited perspective. To be able to hold the cosmic and the physical as one entwined reality.

You will learn at the altar of birth that you know nothing, while simultaneously you are part of the All that Knows.

Birth cracks a woman open and rebuilds her as a mother. For birth attendants, we will also be cracked open in ways that we need to be. Our limitations will be revealed to us. Space will be made for the mystery to enter.

Souls coming through come from a place of such love and nonduality that we would not be able to hold it if we could see the entirety of their design. So we are shown in fragments, in glimpses and synchronicities, dreams and intuitions.

I learn from you, you learn from me, and the wisdom is never depleted from the giving away it just grows and grows as we dance together in the cosmic mystery.

There is so much ongoing conversation about what a doula is or isn't, doula meaning "servant" or "slave", so many out there trying to reinvent and reimagine the role. To me it means to serve at the altar of birth with love, faith and humility.

To my daughter on her birthday

Seven years ago today I birthed my beautiful daughter into the world. A baby girl whose spirit I carried on my shoulder, a soul whose weight of desire to exist made it's presence known daily, who defied the odds of creation and made me truly understand that conception begins in the heart of the womb which only knows love and truth.

She never ceases to amaze me with her understanding of the spiritual and the physical, her astonishing memory and curiosity. Her ability to be both ancient and child. Her vital force that infuses everything she does with passion and purpose.

My freebirth baby who encoded in me the original blueprint for birth so I would never forget the rawness of the wild and holy design.

I hope I will have the honour of being your mother again, although as you say, next time you can be the mummy and I'll be the little girl.

I hope to continue to show you that your pockets are overflowing with ancestors and angels and guides, then next time you can share this wisdom with me and help me to remember.

Signs you've been on the womb path for more than one lifetime...

Have you ever wondered if the womb path is for you? I have worked with women for many years, and common themes emerge in those women who are destined for the womb path and have been walking it for many lifetimes....

1. Born into a family with womb trauma in the maternal line

Women on the womb path often incarnate into families where the most healing is needed. They have come as healers and cycle breakers for this particular line and change makers for future daughters.

2. Experience of domestic and sexual abuse

Women on the womb path are often taken advantage of in relationships as their womb power is seen as a resource to be exploited by others, while in relationship with you abusers do not want to let you go as they are able to achieve their dreams quicker and access states of consciousness they previously could not.

3. Deep fear of speaking up and expressing yourself

Women on the womb path may have been persecuted in past lives for how they expressed themselves, even to death. This may have continued into childhood in this lifetime where they have a fear of being perceived, or feel persecuted for how they express themselves.

4. Womb initiations of pleasure and pain

Women on the womb path experience each initiation as powerful, this can be either deeply painful or deeply pleasurable. It can be unbearable symptoms that lead them back to the womb, or an ecstatic childbirth, or trauma.

5. Difficulties with mental health

Women on the womb path are often highly gifted oracles and sensitive channels, if this power is not grounded in the root of the womb it can express itself as difficulties with mental health. Women notice that these symptoms often start around menarche and continue until the womb is brought into conscious awareness.

You can work with me on womb awakening through my online course, my shamanic womb healing one to one sessions and workshops 🌹