The woman I used to be

The woman I used to be in 2017 - haunted and dead behind the eyes after a year and a half of domestic abuse, that reached it's peak in the postpartum period. This woman was about to become so terrified of what she was experiencing she would pack as much as she could in the space of an hour and leave her home, collect her eldest child early from school, and begin a journey of homelessness (that lasted six months) and family court (that lasted three years).

This would also be the beginning of my conscious womb healing journey. I say conscious because I believe we are always on a healing journey, always seeking resolution and revisiting the same circumstances in the hopes that things will be different this time. I needed answers as to why I had ended up in this situation.

The womb gave me the answer - and it completely blew my mind.

Despite two powerful births, there was still so much more to discover in the womb.

When you connect to the voice of the womb you realise she was always there. Womb healing is about unravelling the layers of conditioning that stifled her voice. Meeting the primal voice within that always knows what is going on. We can be afraid to venture there, because maybe we don't want to hear what she has to say. But like a loving grandmother, the medicine the womb has to offer is both bitter and sweet. Unconditional love isn't flowery and "nice". Sometimes it's tearing it all down and starting again.

Coming to the last two months of this beautiful healing pregnancy with the most gentle man by my side ❤️